i am just a girl,NOT yet a woman; part one

I want to talk about being a woman.sooner or later.
But its better to kick start with the transition-period first.
TEENAGE GIRL-my version part1.

When i was small,there was once i thought of being a princess,marrying my charming prince and live happily ever after. I always tell myself that one day in the future,i'll find a guy-good,reliable and comfortable enough for me to live with. not forgetting to mention that i never hope my prince will be as dashing as Leonardo De Caprio-
     cukup sekadar sedap mata memandang,boleh membimbing saya,dan berkebolehan untuk mengikat saya!!-sebab saya mempunyai darjah kedegilan yang agak tinggi ;p-

I never in my life thought of getting a boyfriend esp during my high school time. For me,that was the crucial time where we students must concentrate on studies and work hard to get excellent results. (and as for me, to get scholarship as im not from a rich family,my mom cant afford to pay for my tuition fee,and i put aside getting a loan for education)
On the contrary, my mom asked me to find one. she said, you must at least have someone special,whom can help you with both life and study. Being the only daughter,she was worried about me, and i do understand her concern. BUT,her 100% encouragement never brought me into that kind of relationship.
In fact, I was the lioness at my school-(at least i consider myself as that) I was closed to most male-classmates, but never too close to be a girlfriend. I felt good hanging out with guys (as i was raised up in full-of-boys-environment) but to make them special is a nah-nah for me. Any guy who made me angry will eventually get paid for whatever things they did to me..  

Sounds like i cant and i dont want to get married right?
nope!!that's not true.
I just think the time has yet to come for me to get a special someone..I dont know how to allocate my time between studies and bf..i never did (even till now, when i have that special someone ;p).

I do want to have a boyfriend!!
and to share all my pain.-Every single girl in this world wants that.
Its just study was my priority that time. And im too scared to face any painful and hurtful feeling throughout the relationship.i heard a lot from my girlfriends.And i didnt think i was ready that time.

and So,that's how I keep my life away from LOVE problem.

If you are scared you will get hurt, dont get yourself into it in the first place.

And i take that-keep the line clear.or stay away from that line.
It will make your life simple and beautiful. Really beautiful indeed.

And that's how I ended my high school life.People might see it as dull-boring student life,but I am more than happy to live my teenage life that way.I choose that path.and I am contented with that life that Allah has granted me with.